Monday, July 25, 2011

July 25th Update

 No real reason to post too often it seems lately. There really isn't any news, good or bad and taking care of Erin consumes most of my free time. Thankfully Erin's friends and family have helped out and offered me opportunities to run to the store or catch a beer with a friend every now and then. It feels so weird that just yesterday Erin and I did whatever we wanted pretty much on a whim and now a relief must be arranged for me to go to the grocery store. I'm not complaining, just making an observation on how it is such a departure from our lives together. This situation is a testament to the fact that no matter how well planned things are they sometimes get flipped around. We led such a "free spirit" lifestyle and I am forever grateful to the memories and experiences we have made together.  
 I, along with everyone else that was fortunate enough to know Erin miss her dearly. It is so hard to watch her live like this without any communication or social interaction. I can only do so much, but the simple things that I can provide for Erin are done without reservation and I only hope that she continues with as little pain and suffering as possible. It seems that with her being home she can regain some dignity, although it is more than likely for me and her family as she continues to have little or no awareness. I remain positive , but I have come to grips with the severity or Erin's injury and the gravity of her situation. It is so difficult to hear the pure optimism of some who almost guarantee that Erin will be as good as new, when no doctor has ever remotely suggested that. I wonder how often it is that people tell you what they think you want to hear instead of saying what they actually think? This goes on in everyday situations where people say pleasant things to avoid any unpleasantness or being uncomfortable, it's human nature. I hope for the best, but have tried to prepare myself for the worst. It's not that I don't believe in miracles or miraculous recoveries, simply that waiting for a miracle when one isn't on the way can leave someone unprepared for reality when it doesn't happen. One of Erin's doctors explained it like this, "things don't always end up the way we want them to or like they do in the movies." I will continue to keep my chin up, love, and take care of my wife no matter what comes our way. She has taught me so much about myself and life in general. I am forever grateful to her for these things. I am also so grateful to those that have helped us so much in this time of need. You have made some things much less worrisome, thank you. Well if you made it this far, thanks for reading. My posts will surely be less frequent, but I will continue to update whenever there is news or the urge strikes.

Friday, July 15, 2011

July 15th Update

 Erin has been home for 8 days now and we are getting into a routine. Erin is stable the swelling comes and goes. Thanks to the friends and family who have come by and offered a helping hand or just sat and talked or shared a beer. Our house revolves around Erin's schedule and that fluctuates day to day.  Although it was a little intimidating at first I am confident that with some help I can handle it for awhile. Erin is in good hands during the day as her nurse is getting into the groove of managing her care during the day. I am looking forward to my Mom, Sister, and Nephew coming in for a visit this weekend. My Mom has never hesitated to jump right in and help out and I will be grateful to have her spending the weekend.  

Friday, July 8, 2011

First Night Home

 Well Erin was brought home last night at about 6:30. It was a hectic day with running all over town multiple times picking up prescriptions, meeting with the hospital, and picking up last minute items for Erin. It was a bustle of activity and I can say that, while bittersweet it did feel good to have her cross the threshold into the house we have built into a home. The next few days will be learning Erin's routine and combining it with mine. Hopefully I can become a little more proficient at the whole turning, changing, feeding thing that will happen all throughout the night. Last night went pretty well I think for my first solo gig.
Here is a picture of me cutting off those cursed bracelets Erin has had on for the last 4 months, I don't know if they bothered her but they drove me batty.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Erin is Coming Home

Well it has been 113 days since Erin has been home. Our world is now completely different than it was, but if you are reading this you probably already know that. I start this day filled with emotion. I am happy that Erin will be home, but sad that it is under the circumstances. I am confident that I have the friends and family that will help me adequately care for Erin, but I am anxious that I may stumble along the way. I guess I 'll figure it out. Thank goodness I have had all the help along the way because I don't have to figure everything out myself. It is because of this tremendous support that I am able to get Erin home today to a house filled with love and support for our girl.
 Well sorry to cut it short but there is still a ton of stuff to accomplish today. It will not be until this evening that I will be getting her home. There are still contractors working and supplies coming in to organize and arrange. I'll keep you posted.