No real reason to post too often it seems lately. There really isn't any news, good or bad and taking care of Erin consumes most of my free time. Thankfully Erin's friends and family have helped out and offered me opportunities to run to the store or catch a beer with a friend every now and then. It feels so weird that just yesterday Erin and I did whatever we wanted pretty much on a whim and now a relief must be arranged for me to go to the grocery store. I'm not complaining, just making an observation on how it is such a departure from our lives together. This situation is a testament to the fact that no matter how well planned things are they sometimes get flipped around. We led such a "free spirit" lifestyle and I am forever grateful to the memories and experiences we have made together.
I, along with everyone else that was fortunate enough to know Erin miss her dearly. It is so hard to watch her live like this without any communication or social interaction. I can only do so much, but the simple things that I can provide for Erin are done without reservation and I only hope that she continues with as little pain and suffering as possible. It seems that with her being home she can regain some dignity, although it is more than likely for me and her family as she continues to have little or no awareness. I remain positive , but I have come to grips with the severity or Erin's injury and the gravity of her situation. It is so difficult to hear the pure optimism of some who almost guarantee that Erin will be as good as new, when no doctor has ever remotely suggested that. I wonder how often it is that people tell you what they think you want to hear instead of saying what they actually think? This goes on in everyday situations where people say pleasant things to avoid any unpleasantness or being uncomfortable, it's human nature. I hope for the best, but have tried to prepare myself for the worst. It's not that I don't believe in miracles or miraculous recoveries, simply that waiting for a miracle when one isn't on the way can leave someone unprepared for reality when it doesn't happen. One of Erin's doctors explained it like this, "things don't always end up the way we want them to or like they do in the movies." I will continue to keep my chin up, love, and take care of my wife no matter what comes our way. She has taught me so much about myself and life in general. I am forever grateful to her for these things. I am also so grateful to those that have helped us so much in this time of need. You have made some things much less worrisome, thank you. Well if you made it this far, thanks for reading. My posts will surely be less frequent, but I will continue to update whenever there is news or the urge strikes.